That moment can never be replaced
You were crazy. You are crazy
You felt too much
You feel too little
Your long, wavy brown hair
Your beauty
As if you were the creator of the ocean
One with the sea
You birthed four dolphins
As a child I idolized you
I memorized your movements
Your tone. Your hands. Your tears.
You were always teaching me how to be alive
I watched as you ran into the cold sea
Your pants darkening into the rippling, rushing water
The wave crashed over your now shadowy face
You beckoned me to follow suit
Courage lacking
Yet my body wanted to feel
It always needs to feel
I let you fool yourself
I let you feel all alone
You don't know very much about life
Misery is all you know
Now I find myself alive
More alive than you'll ever be
I run into freezing hurricane storms
Catch hail with my mouth
I scream your name
But there is no answer
I always want to feel
Who will feel with me?
Swallowing sea salt
Cleansing my system
I dance in the falling water
and remember how you taught me to feel
Now I feel everything
Everything.
This was an interesting read, I would like to know some of your personal connotations as per, "You birthed four dolphins" and from the lines "yet my body wanted to feel" to "more alive than you'll ever be" This poem seems charged with an array of emotions and feels as if it could be about the death of someone. If I infer that "you birthed four dolphins" is referring to literal births, I would assume four sisters? All in all I like it, the only two lines that don't seem to 'flow' would be lines 29-30. other than that I enjoyed it. the only thing that really is keeping me from inferring a death is "you are crazy" where are would represent a still living person. so if i assume such is the case the emotion in the poem changes from reminiscent, challenging, regretful, angry and accepting to more of a bitter, lonely and regretful tone where towards the end you've more or less resigned yourself to that which you've already known.
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